FROM THE END OF THE EARTH I WILL CRY TO YOU, WHEN MY HEART IS OVERWHELMED: LEAD ME TO THE ROCK THAT IS HIGHER THAN I. FOR YOU HAVE BEEN A SHELTER FOR ME, A STRONG TOWER FROM THE ENEMY. PSALM 61:2-3
God loves to show grace and kindness to me. I can trust him. No matter how hard I try, I can never outrun Him. His kindness chases me down and when I quit running it overtakes me. It fills the places where I hide in fear. Those things hiding deep in the shadows of my heart that I am ashamed to bring into light, his grace and restorative power meet me there. It is always enough. When I quit trying to cover myself, he covers me and exchanges my self made attempts at covering myself with his robe of righteousness. There is nowhere I can truly hide but in him.
In him I am safe. I no longer have to perform to declare my worth, because he has already declared it. He couldn’t bear the thought of me paying the price of my own sin so he paid it for me. By his actions, he declared that to him, the grief of being without me was greater than the grief of the Cross. I can trust him.
The rest I am looking for will always be found in him. When I am frantic, fearful and lacking peace, I am not anchored. He gently leads me to the place that is higher than I. He is a firm foundation. If I am living in defeat, chaos and fear, I do not yet have his perspective for my circumstance. I know I am seeing as he does when I see life from the perspective of hope. This hope is not based on the outcome of my situation but rests entirely on the good, grand and eternal God who holds everything in his hands. Fear is the result of misplaced trust and discouragement the result of misplaced hope. I choose to lean into the all knowing and kind God. He will teach me to trust.
Father, Thank you for your grand, eternal love that is far greater than anything I have ever or could ever do. Teach me to live from that place. I choose to learn to trust in you. Show me every place in my life where I am trying to do things on my own and show me those places where I am trying to self preserve out of fear. Continue to show me your heart for me and help me to know you more. Amen.